"Light Speed" contains an interpolation of "Fate Of My Dad," produced by Blake Neely, originally featured in Season 1 - Episode 21 of The Flash.
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lyrics
[Verse 1]
I've been erasing more texts than I been sending lately//
I write em out but don't hit send cuz all my friends could hate me//
They say I'm paranoid - I say it's no debating//
But you don't wanna tempt the shit that I been contemplating//
Darker than I've ever been, and I ain't talking melanin//
Incarcerated thoughts from when they threw me in this cell I'm in//
Weeks pass - months pass and ain't no new developments//
They claimed to be against it but that proved to be irrelevant, right?//
So I guess I didn't matter after all//
My Black life was like the black light that's on the wall//
Illuminate the things nobody see but when i fall//
They let me shatter to a million jagged pieces on the floor (It's like that)//
And can't nobody put me back together//
Somebody tried to do it but trust me I couldn't let her//
Cuz every time she touch I'm like razors to the flesh//
And now she seeing that it's barely nothing left (I'm not the nigga I was)//
[Chorus x2]
What happens in the darkness comes to light//
It's funny how we think that we could hide it//
and even when you think you're doing right//
there's a part of you that's hoping they will find it//
[Verse 2]
I'm doing things now, I know I'll regret in the future//
I tell myself to "persevere and don't let them reduce ya"//
But I ain't got no fight left—//
So when I take my last breath I'll look back and turn to stone like I messed with Medusa//
I'm young Perseus stuck inside of this tragedy//
forgot that I was mortal they stripped away my humanity//
and took my dedication and misconstrued for vanity//
how can it be, they justify abuse cuz they was mad it me//
Sure, the same people I would die for//
They told me "Go ahead and do it; maybe you should try boy//
Maybe you should lie for, the ones that had faith in you//
Cuz if you tell the truth the only person that you save is you"//
and plus you ain't shit for all the things you put your lady through"//
I figured they was right and all that guilt was inescapable//
plus I was so replaceable, like every Black man that came before me//
so I followed every order I promised to keep the story but//
[Outro x2]
You ever try to move past something, that you ain't past loving//
So everything reminds you, of when you had something//
I thought i'd be the man that she could learn to put her trust in//
And be the type of father that my dad wasn't//
credits
from The Life And Times Of Barry Allen EP,
released February 3, 2017
Produced, Written, and Arranged by Masai
Mixed and Mastered by Just Because Entertainment
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